what are these thoughts?

I’m surrounded by so many passionate people.  They are so wise and so open about their love for God, and me, I’m too busy, to tired to really worship Him, and when I see these passionate people, I remember when I had time.  I miss it.
Lately, I’m caught up in worry, in fear.  There are so many things to get done, so many needs that I and the future ‘we’ have.  It’s so stressful.  I can feel that people are praying for me when I need it because some more trivial things I worry about get solved and done.  And I call on Him. I know He hears me.

By the time the day is done, I just want to sleep.  I tend to be in bed by 10 followed by some tv and then sleep.   While everyone else in my apartment is up and having fun, I’m zonked out.  Would you call that depression? Am I sick or something?

I know essentially the things that I do can be attested to who God is in my life.  Those things that are good are from Him, but there are also things that I detest about myself and just wish they would go away.

I just can’t help but think, “when is the last time, me and You, spent some time together? And I worshiped You for all that You are?”  The truth is, I really can’t remember.

I can’t wait for break to get here.  I’ll be less busy and then I have no excuse for ignoring God.

~ by monicafox on December 13, 2007.