I make mistakes, we all mistakes, and you do too.

I’ve spent so much of my life dwelling on the mistakes and imperfections I possess and honestly I don’t have time to focus on the should haves, could haves.  I often wondered what it would be like to see an old friend again, hoping that it would be pleasant and good, only to find that they were angry and bitter with me.  Maybe I could have handled things differently, maybe I could have been more forward, but maybe that wouldn’t have been good enough or even well-received.  I find that I constantly feel like a failure to others.  I don’t want to disappoint people, I don’t want to let others down, but I do.  And I’ve been let down by others too.  I’ve just had to choose to forgive and be merciful.

It just reminds me to stop putting my hope in others.  They can’t satisfy or please me, just like I can never please everyone.  I need to put my hope and trust and complete life in God.

I was in shock…left with the feeling that it’s my fault, and I could have prevented it.

It’s all about the choices we make and the consequences they bring.  All choices have consequences and if we’re lucky, there are also benefits.

Lord forgive me for the things I’ve done that push people away.
Today was an off day, laced with regret and anxiety.  On another note, I got to spend some time with Megan which was greatly needed.  This weekend Lindsey is getting married and I just can’t wait for it to get here!!!  She is going to be absolutely breath-taking. Anyway, hopefully my next post will be less vague and more optimistic.  

I hope everyone has a blessed week!!!

~ by monicafox on June 4, 2008.